edited january 08, 2011

My way of dealing with grief of a freaking guinea pig was through this and I used every bit of emotion from 9 months of trying everything to understand what was wrong with little Oscar. It lasted 9 months because each vet visit, we thought they would find the problem. By 9 months, Oscar had bonded in a remarkable way with us. What the heck! I am editing this old post and I’m about to cry and also this edit I hope I won’t remove because I never in all these years have been able to put that grief in words at all so I am not going to read it. How am I going to not read it? Oh dear end of edit sunday january 08, 2012

Edit December 21, 2011

I have tried being scary at a time when I was not so heartbroken and the only thing interesting to me was the purple hair. It is amazing what a little guinea pig can do to the drama. I find this inspiring and yes, only a guinea pig can make this nonsense. Never knew love could hurt so bad so I try not to love, but they try harder to make sure I don’t forget them and I never will. It was a guinea pig named Oscar. I still cannot describe it due to emotions. What better way to show what grief did. I have quite a few of these, but I’m sure I can get into that drama by thinking of Oscar even after all these years.

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Bree was a fake lonely girl who was so fake and I hated her because she was so fake at being so fake and yet I still managed to make sure to watch every video. I should share some of the poems I wrote when I was so full of hate. OMIGAWD When I look through them, I burst out in laughter, but Bree and Oscar both died at the same time except Bree was not real. Hoping the series wouldn’t end, I made my spoof and channeled the drama through the loss of a guinea pig and the image that I had among the fans of that “lonelygirl” series. They thought I was dangerous. So let me scare them more. hah

You can erase pictures and videos, but it really does not take away that grief

By 9 months, Oscar, the guinea pig was too worn out and we said goodbye. I recorded with my camera the emotion from reading the poem “the rainbow bridge” and I am glad I did because it shows the true emotion that I never have seen with the cats that were supposed to fill that void. Oscar was very special.

Now for the video

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